Trying To Make It Real

Hello to all of my faithful readers -
Sorry it has been a while since I have posted anything but everything, thank GOD, has been going well and so no news is good news. BUT, that is not what this blog was intended for now was it. It was created to share the events of our pregnancy through my eyes. So, here are some events from Daddy's side.
Although I do not envy the physical pain of child birth and the before and after effects that pregnancy has on women, I do envy the fact that the mother of my child will feel the child inside of them. As we all know, men and women vary in many different ways. One of these ways is that men need to see, hear, feel, etc. something before they can start to process it. This is not to say that I am not processing the upcoming birth of my child (February 14th!), but rather to attempt to explain where I am coming from. (If I am not making sense, forgive me, I am just typing kind of on a rant here.) What I do envy about a woman having the privilege to carry around this miracle for 9 - 10 months is that they do have the connection of feeling the kick, knowing that this precious little person that we have made together is inside of her, and always having this gift of life with them through the day.
Now, do not think that I am one of those men who will stuff their shirt with a pillow and walk around in maternity clothes putting a little dog under the pillow to feel a kick, BUT you never know. (*SIDE NOTE* Maternity clothes look really comfortable and after the 10 pounds I have already gained I might go buy some for myself)
Anyway, my point is this, I have been in the process of trying to make it real. The thing is, I can't make it real. I asked my friend Kerry when it hit him that he was a father after the birth of their first son Kohen. His answer was, "About 2 days later". I have thought about this a lot and I am now trying to let GOD do his work and not to try and force it to be real but rather, wait for it to become real, for me, as it will (February 14th!).
We can try to prepare for things throughout life such as first kisses, tests, marriage, kids, etc. but in the end, sometimes you might not feel how real these things are until about 2 days later!