IT'S A......

...HEALTHY baby BOY! Talk about making it more real. Anyway, Katie had her normal check up for the baby today and so we decided to schedule a sonogram on the same day to check for measurements, how far along and the sex and it has been a long day. It started out like any other day, we both get up for work, say goodbye and I love you and I will see you at 2:30 for the appointment to find out about the health and sex of our baby. Okay, maybe not like "any other day". Okay, I'll skip to the good stuff. We had the appointment at 3:00 with the OBGYN to get the quad screen results back. If you do not know what this is do not feel bad - I thought that it was an offensive football play that might work from a power I formation, possibly the Wishbone. Well, it's not. It is a test that they do to check for cystic fibrosis, trisomy 18, trisomy 21 (Down syndrome) and spina bifida. The baby is healthy and the risks for these are very slim to none the Doctor said. Thank you GOD.
So, after this, we go to get the sonogram done to measure our son's (wow, weird to say AND type) femur, skull, spine, etc. to check that he is growing at a normal rate and to see how far along that Katie is. She is 18 weeks and 5 days, exactly where they said she would be and all of the news that they gave us was good news. All is well. The due date is still February 14th and my excitement is growing by the minute!
Now comes the part where I tell you where I am, emoionally, in all of this. As the date of our son's birth gets closer, as my excitement of being a father mounts, also rises my fear of being a father. I have had two incredible teachers for fatherhood - my Heavenly Father and my Earthly father and for this I am thankful. I do not know how any fathers do what they do. (For the women who are reading this and are saying "what do you mean how do fathers do it?! How about mothers?!" read the title of the blog) To get to the point, I am scared to death about how to raise and teach a child. Some people say it comes natural to you and some say you learn as you go, I don't know. My point is that I am scared. Scared to death.
The one thing that I know for sure is that my selfish wants, my selfish ways will be put aside for the needs of my son. GOD sent his only Son to take away our sins. Jesus gave the ultimate sacrifice, HIS life, to save us, HIS children. What a sacrifice. I am not in any way comparing myself with Jesus but I will say that I will sacrifice anything for my child(ren), no matter the cost.
I think I might have made myself feel a little better there. It was a long post to get through for you and me. Thanks for reading and thanks for the prayers. I'll try and be better at posting!

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