Hello to all! Well, all 4 of you that read this anyway. It has been a while since I have last written and as we all know with time comes thoughts, feelings, and realizations. I have had all of those and I thought, what a better time to write than when I am supposed to be working!
It's funny, when you find out that you are pregnant, all you think about is, "Wow, we are having a baby!" The thing is, though, while yes you are having a baby, the truth of the matter is that you are bringing a person into the world. I know what you are thinking - "Yes, Jimmy, we know that babies are little people that grow up to be adults". The thing that I can not wrap my brain around is that this baby, this little person, this miracle that proves without a doubt that GOD is here is going to grow up. I always thought, okay we're having a baby, and I never thought past the late night feedings that I hear about and the crying and the diaper changing. I am just now trying to get my brain to process the thought that after all the things that go with having this beautiful little guy that is a mixture of Katie and I (hopefully about 70% Katie and 30% me) there's the first day of school, first sports games, first heart break, high school graduation and all the things in between. My goodness! Now, we are not having a baby, we are having a person! He's going to talk back, drive, help with house chores (hopefully), you get the idea.
As you can tell, I have thought a little about this but not until this past week. I will definitely live each day for that day but this adventure that we have been on is incredible. Each day our son, Jack, changes in some miraculous way. Whether it is the fact that he can open his eyes right now, or just something else that might seem so little or nothing to some people has got me so intrigued and excited. What this all reminds me of is, well, Christmas. Actually, the receiving of presents on Christmas. Every time that we see him move in Katie's womb, it is like I just shook a present to see what's inside. I can't wait for the birth (or unwrapping) of this wonderful gift we have been given by our Heavenly Father. Although, I have heard that he never gives instructions with these gifts. This present is a present that will keep on giving, that is for sure. We get to watch him grow to be a man and how amazing is that?! The fact that Katie and I came together and conceived this being with the blessing of GOD is way beyond my comprehension and the love that I feel for this child even while still in the womb is something that I can cot believe. I haven't even held him yet but yet I do not want to let go of him. I haven't even seen him yet but he is the most beautiful child ever (a little biased). I have no idea what to say to him but yet I do not want to stop talking to him. I have not met him yet but I am ready to lay my life down for him. What a strange but wonderful feeling.
Anyway, we still have about 8 weeks to go so the praying will continue for my family and friends until the day I die but I especially pray right now for Katie and Jack's health and a healthy delivery and grand entrance into this world. Although this world that our newborn children are joining is going through some times with war, politics and other turmoil, I know that they are brought into this world for a reason. I love to live and I live to love and I have been blessed with friends and family to do both with.
If I do not write before then, have a wonderful and blessed Christmas and a safe and wonderful New Year. Thanks for reading.
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
Thursday, September 18, 2008
IT'S A......
...HEALTHY baby BOY! Talk about making it more real. Anyway, Katie had her normal check up for the baby today and so we decided to schedule a sonogram on the same day to check for measurements, how far along and the sex and it has been a long day. It started out like any other day, we both get up for work, say goodbye and I love you and I will see you at 2:30 for the appointment to find out about the health and sex of our baby. Okay, maybe not like "any other day". Okay, I'll skip to the good stuff. We had the appointment at 3:00 with the OBGYN to get the quad screen results back. If you do not know what this is do not feel bad - I thought that it was an offensive football play that might work from a power I formation, possibly the Wishbone. Well, it's not. It is a test that they do to check for cystic fibrosis, trisomy 18, trisomy 21 (Down syndrome) and spina bifida. The baby is healthy and the risks for these are very slim to none the Doctor said. Thank you GOD.
So, after this, we go to get the sonogram done to measure our son's (wow, weird to say AND type) femur, skull, spine, etc. to check that he is growing at a normal rate and to see how far along that Katie is. She is 18 weeks and 5 days, exactly where they said she would be and all of the news that they gave us was good news. All is well. The due date is still February 14th and my excitement is growing by the minute!
Now comes the part where I tell you where I am, emoionally, in all of this. As the date of our son's birth gets closer, as my excitement of being a father mounts, also rises my fear of being a father. I have had two incredible teachers for fatherhood - my Heavenly Father and my Earthly father and for this I am thankful. I do not know how any fathers do what they do. (For the women who are reading this and are saying "what do you mean how do fathers do it?! How about mothers?!" read the title of the blog) To get to the point, I am scared to death about how to raise and teach a child. Some people say it comes natural to you and some say you learn as you go, I don't know. My point is that I am scared. Scared to death.
The one thing that I know for sure is that my selfish wants, my selfish ways will be put aside for the needs of my son. GOD sent his only Son to take away our sins. Jesus gave the ultimate sacrifice, HIS life, to save us, HIS children. What a sacrifice. I am not in any way comparing myself with Jesus but I will say that I will sacrifice anything for my child(ren), no matter the cost.
I think I might have made myself feel a little better there. It was a long post to get through for you and me. Thanks for reading and thanks for the prayers. I'll try and be better at posting!
- The only prayers not answered are the ones not prayed -
So, after this, we go to get the sonogram done to measure our son's (wow, weird to say AND type) femur, skull, spine, etc. to check that he is growing at a normal rate and to see how far along that Katie is. She is 18 weeks and 5 days, exactly where they said she would be and all of the news that they gave us was good news. All is well. The due date is still February 14th and my excitement is growing by the minute!
Now comes the part where I tell you where I am, emoionally, in all of this. As the date of our son's birth gets closer, as my excitement of being a father mounts, also rises my fear of being a father. I have had two incredible teachers for fatherhood - my Heavenly Father and my Earthly father and for this I am thankful. I do not know how any fathers do what they do. (For the women who are reading this and are saying "what do you mean how do fathers do it?! How about mothers?!" read the title of the blog) To get to the point, I am scared to death about how to raise and teach a child. Some people say it comes natural to you and some say you learn as you go, I don't know. My point is that I am scared. Scared to death.
The one thing that I know for sure is that my selfish wants, my selfish ways will be put aside for the needs of my son. GOD sent his only Son to take away our sins. Jesus gave the ultimate sacrifice, HIS life, to save us, HIS children. What a sacrifice. I am not in any way comparing myself with Jesus but I will say that I will sacrifice anything for my child(ren), no matter the cost.
I think I might have made myself feel a little better there. It was a long post to get through for you and me. Thanks for reading and thanks for the prayers. I'll try and be better at posting!
- The only prayers not answered are the ones not prayed -
Thursday, August 28, 2008
Trying To Make It Real
Hello to all of my faithful readers -
Sorry it has been a while since I have posted anything but everything, thank GOD, has been going well and so no news is good news. BUT, that is not what this blog was intended for now was it. It was created to share the events of our pregnancy through my eyes. So, here are some events from Daddy's side.
Although I do not envy the physical pain of child birth and the before and after effects that pregnancy has on women, I do envy the fact that the mother of my child will feel the child inside of them. As we all know, men and women vary in many different ways. One of these ways is that men need to see, hear, feel, etc. something before they can start to process it. This is not to say that I am not processing the upcoming birth of my child (February 14th!), but rather to attempt to explain where I am coming from. (If I am not making sense, forgive me, I am just typing kind of on a rant here.) What I do envy about a woman having the privilege to carry around this miracle for 9 - 10 months is that they do have the connection of feeling the kick, knowing that this precious little person that we have made together is inside of her, and always having this gift of life with them through the day.
Now, do not think that I am one of those men who will stuff their shirt with a pillow and walk around in maternity clothes putting a little dog under the pillow to feel a kick, BUT you never know. (*SIDE NOTE* Maternity clothes look really comfortable and after the 10 pounds I have already gained I might go buy some for myself)
Anyway, my point is this, I have been in the process of trying to make it real. The thing is, I can't make it real. I asked my friend Kerry when it hit him that he was a father after the birth of their first son Kohen. His answer was, "About 2 days later". I have thought about this a lot and I am now trying to let GOD do his work and not to try and force it to be real but rather, wait for it to become real, for me, as it will (February 14th!).
We can try to prepare for things throughout life such as first kisses, tests, marriage, kids, etc. but in the end, sometimes you might not feel how real these things are until about 2 days later!
Sorry it has been a while since I have posted anything but everything, thank GOD, has been going well and so no news is good news. BUT, that is not what this blog was intended for now was it. It was created to share the events of our pregnancy through my eyes. So, here are some events from Daddy's side.
Although I do not envy the physical pain of child birth and the before and after effects that pregnancy has on women, I do envy the fact that the mother of my child will feel the child inside of them. As we all know, men and women vary in many different ways. One of these ways is that men need to see, hear, feel, etc. something before they can start to process it. This is not to say that I am not processing the upcoming birth of my child (February 14th!), but rather to attempt to explain where I am coming from. (If I am not making sense, forgive me, I am just typing kind of on a rant here.) What I do envy about a woman having the privilege to carry around this miracle for 9 - 10 months is that they do have the connection of feeling the kick, knowing that this precious little person that we have made together is inside of her, and always having this gift of life with them through the day.
Now, do not think that I am one of those men who will stuff their shirt with a pillow and walk around in maternity clothes putting a little dog under the pillow to feel a kick, BUT you never know. (*SIDE NOTE* Maternity clothes look really comfortable and after the 10 pounds I have already gained I might go buy some for myself)
Anyway, my point is this, I have been in the process of trying to make it real. The thing is, I can't make it real. I asked my friend Kerry when it hit him that he was a father after the birth of their first son Kohen. His answer was, "About 2 days later". I have thought about this a lot and I am now trying to let GOD do his work and not to try and force it to be real but rather, wait for it to become real, for me, as it will (February 14th!).
We can try to prepare for things throughout life such as first kisses, tests, marriage, kids, etc. but in the end, sometimes you might not feel how real these things are until about 2 days later!
Thursday, August 14, 2008
Summary of Events Thus Far
Well -
We are coming into our fourteenth week of pregnancy and it has already been a ride. It seems like only yesterday when she shared the news with me in a very sweet way. Then came the bloodwork to confirm that it was true (even though she had used five, yes 5, home tests). It was now confirmed. We are going to be parents.
Now, as a 28 year old going on 18, I am blessed that I found a woman whose maturity more than makes up my lack there of. The growing up process has now become a full time job but with this job, just as any other, I am still in training. I have a lot in front of me in which I have no idea to prepare except to just put forth all of my effort to make parenthood, just like marriage, a partnership.
Since this is my first time "getting my blog on" AND my first time preparing for fatherhood I am going to keep my initial post short. I am sure that I will reflect back on some things from time to time but my purpose here is to not only chronicle my experiences for myself, my beautiful wife and my child, but also for anyone who has the chance to experience this themselves. Many women write blogs about their growing families but I wanted to write about my experiences from a man's point of view through this wonderful miracle from the inside looking in. I hope that you read whatever nonsense I put up on here and I also hope that if you have any advice for me that you post it. Anyway, my baby mama is doing great! Just a little nausea here and there and the usual nothing sounds good to eat phase but that is mild compared to some. Keep us in your prayers and I will "blog" at ya soon!
- Daddy Aboussie -
We are coming into our fourteenth week of pregnancy and it has already been a ride. It seems like only yesterday when she shared the news with me in a very sweet way. Then came the bloodwork to confirm that it was true (even though she had used five, yes 5, home tests). It was now confirmed. We are going to be parents.
Now, as a 28 year old going on 18, I am blessed that I found a woman whose maturity more than makes up my lack there of. The growing up process has now become a full time job but with this job, just as any other, I am still in training. I have a lot in front of me in which I have no idea to prepare except to just put forth all of my effort to make parenthood, just like marriage, a partnership.
Since this is my first time "getting my blog on" AND my first time preparing for fatherhood I am going to keep my initial post short. I am sure that I will reflect back on some things from time to time but my purpose here is to not only chronicle my experiences for myself, my beautiful wife and my child, but also for anyone who has the chance to experience this themselves. Many women write blogs about their growing families but I wanted to write about my experiences from a man's point of view through this wonderful miracle from the inside looking in. I hope that you read whatever nonsense I put up on here and I also hope that if you have any advice for me that you post it. Anyway, my baby mama is doing great! Just a little nausea here and there and the usual nothing sounds good to eat phase but that is mild compared to some. Keep us in your prayers and I will "blog" at ya soon!
- Daddy Aboussie -
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